it has nothing to do with desire. his home is in heaven. his duty is to heaven. if the apocalypse doesn't come to pass, if they could be that lucky, his first thought would have been to return, if they allowed him, to set things right.
it's only now, in the process of this conversation, that he considers: maybe this isn't possible. ]
Was it my idea? Or did you ask me to?
[ five years in the future, this would be a loaded conversation. oh, how he wanted dean to ask him. longed for it, like he's longed for nothing else. but this castiel hasn't even considered the possibility. they're endless. the future, infinite, all stretching out before him, terrifying in its enormity. ]
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it has nothing to do with desire. his home is in heaven. his duty is to heaven. if the apocalypse doesn't come to pass, if they could be that lucky, his first thought would have been to return, if they allowed him, to set things right.
it's only now, in the process of this conversation, that he considers: maybe this isn't possible. ]
Was it my idea? Or did you ask me to?
[ five years in the future, this would be a loaded conversation. oh, how he wanted dean to ask him. longed for it, like he's longed for nothing else. but this castiel hasn't even considered the possibility. they're endless. the future, infinite, all stretching out before him, terrifying in its enormity. ]