[That actually isn't untrue but it's also not...great. To have enough traumatizing things happen in your life that "oh yeah, he turned out to not have died and also lots of worse things happened" kind of makes you mentally slot something that should mess you up as "resolved."]
With yours, I'm not gonna get into your business, but that just sounds like a crappy situation where it was impossible to save everyone, and at least one person was always screwed.
[If one person always had to die no matter what, then...it just sucked, and no one could be faulted for deciding not to be the arbiter of who had to die.]
That's not the same as taking someone out. Trust me. [In his case, he has killed so many. Like a super big number of people, enough he kind of stopped counting.] It just...hits different when you can't save a friend.
[He thinks of Nightfall, far off in the distance, with the dimensional keys in an array behind her. How the destructive light from Mooncake was briefly blinding until...nothing was left.]
[The expression on his face is extremely gentle. Not pitying, just gentle, the way someone might be with a friend who's just mentioned something unfortunate that happened.]
So we don't have to use that one. We can make one up. Or even if you're okay with it in general, she doesn't need to know who. Or why.
[That makes it more personal, all the nitty gritty.]
[And Till isn't something to be used at his own expense.]
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[That actually isn't untrue but it's also not...great. To have enough traumatizing things happen in your life that "oh yeah, he turned out to not have died and also lots of worse things happened" kind of makes you mentally slot something that should mess you up as "resolved."]
With yours, I'm not gonna get into your business, but that just sounds like a crappy situation where it was impossible to save everyone, and at least one person was always screwed.
[If one person always had to die no matter what, then...it just sucked, and no one could be faulted for deciding not to be the arbiter of who had to die.]
That's not the same as taking someone out. Trust me. [In his case, he has killed so many. Like a super big number of people, enough he kind of stopped counting.] It just...hits different when you can't save a friend.
[He thinks of Nightfall, far off in the distance, with the dimensional keys in an array behind her. How the destructive light from Mooncake was briefly blinding until...nothing was left.]
[The expression on his face is extremely gentle. Not pitying, just gentle, the way someone might be with a friend who's just mentioned something unfortunate that happened.]
So we don't have to use that one. We can make one up. Or even if you're okay with it in general, she doesn't need to know who. Or why.
[That makes it more personal, all the nitty gritty.]
[And Till isn't something to be used at his own expense.]