[Vander's friendship has come naturally but she knows they have both tried to keep things light. make sure nothing turns too dark even if there have been hints and they have both offered to let this friendship truly matter. and while sometimes keeping up the jokes and playful persona wasn't always easy, it was with Vander. he made her feel like that. they enjoyed each other and that was special.
it's why part of her worries about this conversation. if this might ruin the good thing they had going. but when he starts to stroke her back, comforts her, she sees this worry is in vain. she likes the feeling and how he moves around her. being held like this isn't something she's used to.]
Mm, I was a Sprawl. I was near there when people started trying to push farther. I know the Dregs weren't being treated right so I guess I can't be so mad about it. But I was worried about my friend and was looking for her, hoping she didn't get mixed up in it. She's only 18 and way more capable than me but you know how it goes. You worry anyway when they're young. [she offers a smile, sure he must understand that worry. he was a father after all. that never stopped being your job.]
Anyway, she was fine. I messed up and almost ended up getting stabbed unless Vincent hadn't taken the knife for me. That's who it was. Vincent Smith. He won't tell me what he lost but he seems more quiet. A bit more anxious. [she doesn't say if they're close because boy isn't that complicated and Vander doesn't need to get involved in that tricky business.] He would like it better if you knew he didn't do it because he cares about me. I'm just more useful to him having never died and losing anything. That's all. Not to sound ungrateful, I am. Having a guy die for you, bleeding out in your arms...does a number on a girl. Even if he did call me ugly as he died in my arms.
[she ends that serious talk with a joke because she doesn't want to make Vander think she's just going to unload on him. Maria doesn't want that to be their relationship or to make him think that just because they had sex, she expected anything more than what they had offered. so she leans in to kiss his cheek.] So thank you for getting my mind off of it. I know things haven't been easy for you either.
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it's why part of her worries about this conversation. if this might ruin the good thing they had going. but when he starts to stroke her back, comforts her, she sees this worry is in vain. she likes the feeling and how he moves around her. being held like this isn't something she's used to.]
Mm, I was a Sprawl. I was near there when people started trying to push farther. I know the Dregs weren't being treated right so I guess I can't be so mad about it. But I was worried about my friend and was looking for her, hoping she didn't get mixed up in it. She's only 18 and way more capable than me but you know how it goes. You worry anyway when they're young. [she offers a smile, sure he must understand that worry. he was a father after all. that never stopped being your job.]
Anyway, she was fine. I messed up and almost ended up getting stabbed unless Vincent hadn't taken the knife for me. That's who it was. Vincent Smith. He won't tell me what he lost but he seems more quiet. A bit more anxious. [she doesn't say if they're close because boy isn't that complicated and Vander doesn't need to get involved in that tricky business.] He would like it better if you knew he didn't do it because he cares about me. I'm just more useful to him having never died and losing anything. That's all. Not to sound ungrateful, I am. Having a guy die for you, bleeding out in your arms...does a number on a girl. Even if he did call me ugly as he died in my arms.
[she ends that serious talk with a joke because she doesn't want to make Vander think she's just going to unload on him. Maria doesn't want that to be their relationship or to make him think that just because they had sex, she expected anything more than what they had offered. so she leans in to kiss his cheek.] So thank you for getting my mind off of it. I know things haven't been easy for you either.