[ Does John believe that? Not really. He expects it'll come to blows eventually. ]
Even if it does, I've decided I don't care. I won't make enemies of the people here.
[ He got his sniper rifle, it's in the library (much to Harold's dismay). He just isn't prepared to use it anymore. Even if Dazai was his enemy he thinks he'd lose sleep over putting a bullet in his head. That's just... not who he is anymore. It's not who he wants to be anymore. Maybe if Harold wasn't here to steady him, to remind him, maybe then he would be— but Harold is here, and seeing him, living with him, has reminded John of his purpose: saving lives. ]
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Even if it does, I've decided I don't care. I won't make enemies of the people here.
[ He got his sniper rifle, it's in the library (much to Harold's dismay). He just isn't prepared to use it anymore. Even if Dazai was his enemy he thinks he'd lose sleep over putting a bullet in his head. That's just... not who he is anymore. It's not who he wants to be anymore. Maybe if Harold wasn't here to steady him, to remind him, maybe then he would be— but Harold is here, and seeing him, living with him, has reminded John of his purpose: saving lives. ]