It's not supposed to happen like that!

( he can't yell at grayson for saving him. he can't yell at bruce for being frustrated, because this bruce is still so young, so new, still adjusting to damian as it is. he could take it out on drake, who he knows would get it, but drake's brush with death is still fresh for him. todd is always an option, but one who is a little more difficult to get to. he would understand, better than most. damian knows that, yet here he is, raising his voice at gordon. )

It should have been me! I can handle it! My death wouldn't have slowed him down any, I would have gotten back up, I'm an al Ghul, death is -

( he still remembers his grandfather telling him damian was born to be spare parts for him. remembers the desperation in his voice when he came to the cave and found drake. the fight that happened after that. death is meant to be impossible to overcome, but damian has done it before. he would do it again with minimal consequences. what's a few nightmares if it spares grayson from the same? damian cuts off his own sentence, restarts. )

I would have been fine. Sacrificing himself was not the logical path to take.