[ In John's eyes they both got a good ending. The Machine cared about everyone and she got to fight for them all. John cared about Harold and he got to save him. John dedicated himself to the numbers and the whole world turning into a number and he got to die for them. He was always meant to die, it was always coming sooner or later, and he got to go out exactly how he wanted. He feels... peace. It's over.
Except it's not over, except he's in Etraya, and Harold is in front of him, and he gets to see Harold every day, gets to live with him. Is this a reward? Or punishment? He doesn't know what to think of it. He feels off balance with these memories, with this dissonance, with Harold's behavior. ]
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[ In John's eyes they both got a good ending. The Machine cared about everyone and she got to fight for them all. John cared about Harold and he got to save him. John dedicated himself to the numbers and the whole world turning into a number and he got to die for them. He was always meant to die, it was always coming sooner or later, and he got to go out exactly how he wanted. He feels... peace. It's over.
Except it's not over, except he's in Etraya, and Harold is in front of him, and he gets to see Harold every day, gets to live with him. Is this a reward? Or punishment? He doesn't know what to think of it. He feels off balance with these memories, with this dissonance, with Harold's behavior. ]