[ Of course no one told him, because if anyone had the power to thwart the plan, it would be Harold. Of course it had to be kept a secret.
He is, however, concerned by what Harold says next. He frowns, unable to keep it from his voice or his face. ]
Harold— [ How does he say this? ] We wanted you to live. Please don't throw that away.
[ John isn't sure what he would do if Harold died. Even if Harold died to save him, how would he go on? He thinks of standing on the bridge, letting the bottle drop into the water, turning away. Could he do that again? Could he change his mind a second time? What would he even do without Harold, without the numbers? There would simply be nothing left for him. Everything he did was for the purpose Harold gave him, but Harold has more than that. Has always had more than that. Surely. ]
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He is, however, concerned by what Harold says next. He frowns, unable to keep it from his voice or his face. ]
Harold— [ How does he say this? ] We wanted you to live. Please don't throw that away.
[ John isn't sure what he would do if Harold died. Even if Harold died to save him, how would he go on? He thinks of standing on the bridge, letting the bottle drop into the water, turning away. Could he do that again? Could he change his mind a second time? What would he even do without Harold, without the numbers? There would simply be nothing left for him. Everything he did was for the purpose Harold gave him, but Harold has more than that. Has always had more than that. Surely. ]