[ John visibly relaxes when Harold says he won't take "any drastic measures". He was concerned, he was so worried for the moments before that declaration. But he can ease Harold's mind some, he can help him understand what this meant to John. ]

I was meant to die a long time ago. Before you met me, when the CIA found me, when Kara found me, after Joss died. For any of the numbers. But you gave me chance after chance. You gave me better than I deserved. I couldn't have picked a better way to die.

[ He's so calm, he feels so at peace confessing that. Death was inevitable, he'd accepted it long ago. Now he got to die for the right life, the one that mattered the most. What more could he ask for? ]