[ John just watches Harold go. He watches him go and suddenly the library feels so empty. Like it means nothing. There's no comfort here anymore, all he can hear is Harold saying he can't see him anymore. Not for forever, but for how long? How long can John stand to be in this space that should have Harold in it, has always had Harold in it, who is now gone?
The thought of going outside and seeing anyone is terrible, there's so much opportunity for him to run into people at the apartments and he simply doesn't know how he could face anyone right now, but the strangeness of the space feels like something he could stomach. He has no attachment to the place and as long as he keeps strange hours he'll be free to just drink until he can't think anymore. John suddenly realizes that's what he's going to do. He'll have to stop at the liquor store on his way over. Last night he held back, he was good, but he's already replaying this conversation over in his mind, already thinking about how Harold cried. He can't stand it.
And if he leaves, Harold won't have to see him when he comes back for his computers. He'll be giving Harold that, at least. Apparently it's the only thing he can give, since he failed at giving Harold what he needed before.
John leaves their living space, closing the door softly behind him, and goes to find something to drink. ]
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The thought of going outside and seeing anyone is terrible, there's so much opportunity for him to run into people at the apartments and he simply doesn't know how he could face anyone right now, but the strangeness of the space feels like something he could stomach. He has no attachment to the place and as long as he keeps strange hours he'll be free to just drink until he can't think anymore. John suddenly realizes that's what he's going to do. He'll have to stop at the liquor store on his way over. Last night he held back, he was good, but he's already replaying this conversation over in his mind, already thinking about how Harold cried. He can't stand it.
And if he leaves, Harold won't have to see him when he comes back for his computers. He'll be giving Harold that, at least. Apparently it's the only thing he can give, since he failed at giving Harold what he needed before.
John leaves their living space, closing the door softly behind him, and goes to find something to drink. ]