Yeah, that makes more sense to me than you know. [it was partly why she was living her life here like she did. though not entirely selfishly (she had a universe to save for Heather's and Laura's sakes), Maria remembered the advice she got from Vincent's tarot cards. she could never be happy if she lived by other's desires. easier said than done but she was trying.]

I know we're here to prove a point but I think we can do that and be happy. Back home, what would our lives look like right now? You wouldn't have this chance with John. So, not like you need my approval but just try to be happy. Even if it's in a life you didn't ask for or a chance you may not feel you deserve, it's yours. Take it. Do something worthwhile with it. Don't waste it holding back.