[Kirk knows a lot of his actions could be considered mistakes depending on how one looks at them, right down to when he decided to try to cure himself]

It's been over a decade since I transformed and I'm still trying to find a way to reverse the serum.

The... hunger is what I meant when I said I walk a tightrope every day to not lose my mind. The artificial plasma can cover my basic needs but even then, it's not the same.