Jayce. [ His voice is shallow, sharp, almost too much so as he winces at how his own voice sounds in his ears. But the sharp pain that blooms in his chest and makes his lungs seize as he hears those words is just painful enough to make him blink his eyes to fight away that burning sensation of unshed tears. It's unfair how easily those words wound, knowing what he knows now about them, only makes it cut deeper to hear those words spill so easily from Jayce's mouth. ]
I. Do you not think it's the same for me? [ He knows that he had saved Jayce all those years ago. Saved him from taking that final step off that ledge, and he knows that Jayce had saved him too in the same night, but in a different way entirely. ] You gave me a sense of purpose, a dream, and a means to help people that night. You saved me from a life of mundanity that I would have otherwise died in with little to no legacy. If not for you...
[ his life would have been so woefully boring. He swallows thickly, looks away again. ] So to say such things so easily. Then I am the same. [ A shaky breath that ends with a small cough. ]
Because I...[ Because I love you, have loved you for 7 years, and don't want to lose you. That he's afraid he will die here, and Jayce will do something stupid or drastic or both, and it will be this constant, never-ending cycle of them hurting each other because this body of his is useless and deteriorating.
But he doesn't say outright, but in so many words, it can be inferred when he finally manages to speak again. ]
My feelings for you have always been the same. They are...far deeper than you know, and I know that yours are the same... [ a pause as his voice comes out softer. ] because you told me back in Aphaia.
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I. Do you not think it's the same for me? [ He knows that he had saved Jayce all those years ago. Saved him from taking that final step off that ledge, and he knows that Jayce had saved him too in the same night, but in a different way entirely. ] You gave me a sense of purpose, a dream, and a means to help people that night. You saved me from a life of mundanity that I would have otherwise died in with little to no legacy. If not for you...
[ his life would have been so woefully boring. He swallows thickly, looks away again. ] So to say such things so easily. Then I am the same. [ A shaky breath that ends with a small cough. ]
Because I...[ Because I love you, have loved you for 7 years, and don't want to lose you. That he's afraid he will die here, and Jayce will do something stupid or drastic or both, and it will be this constant, never-ending cycle of them hurting each other because this body of his is useless and deteriorating.
But he doesn't say outright, but in so many words, it can be inferred when he finally manages to speak again. ]
My feelings for you have always been the same. They are...far deeper than you know, and I know that yours are the same... [ a pause as his voice comes out softer. ] because you told me back in Aphaia.