Audio books, huh? Oh, like those books on tape. [but she knew technology was different for this place rather than her 90s world.] I guess I could try that. It'd take care of me not being able to sit still. [which was always the issue.
the last time it had come up was because Vander had asked if they could continue and Maria had asked just what he wanted to continue. he'd put up the same lines as he had the last time, he'd asked her a similar question, and Maria had said this was enough for her. really, it was more than enough. she still stood by that. and they both could admit, had admitted, their relationship had changed after the Aphaia mission. even their sexual relationship had changed. they joked about it but it had been much more than just blowing off steam, it had been wanting each other. their words had shown that as well.
and now here they were. again.
Maria had liked being so wanted. Vander depended on her and she knew it. but just like he depended on her, she depended on him and if he was being honest then she would. it was only fair.]
I hate being alone. I hate it so much. It feels like I'll go crazy if I am for too long. So I work at the bodega with Heather, I always have people I'll see, and then I have you. Even if you're not at the apartment, your presence is there and I like that so much. I like you, I like waking up to you and knowing I'll see you every day. You pull me out of bad places just by being in my life. We're the same. We knew what was happening and we let it happen. [there were still benefits but they had simply grown far beyond just sexual benefits.] I told you before you left that as long as you wanted me there then I'd be there and it's still true.
[Maria hadn't been looking at him and now she does, thanking the dark for giving her the bravery to do so.]
Vander, I don't want you to look at me differently. You've made me happy and I don't want things to change. I know they have to one day and when they do I'll be gracious. I won't make it your problem. But I just want to be your friend, whatever that looks like for us. [and many would say this was not just friendship, she knew, but what did it matter if this worked for them?]
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the last time it had come up was because Vander had asked if they could continue and Maria had asked just what he wanted to continue. he'd put up the same lines as he had the last time, he'd asked her a similar question, and Maria had said this was enough for her. really, it was more than enough. she still stood by that. and they both could admit, had admitted, their relationship had changed after the Aphaia mission. even their sexual relationship had changed. they joked about it but it had been much more than just blowing off steam, it had been wanting each other. their words had shown that as well.
and now here they were. again.
Maria had liked being so wanted. Vander depended on her and she knew it. but just like he depended on her, she depended on him and if he was being honest then she would. it was only fair.]
I hate being alone. I hate it so much. It feels like I'll go crazy if I am for too long. So I work at the bodega with Heather, I always have people I'll see, and then I have you. Even if you're not at the apartment, your presence is there and I like that so much. I like you, I like waking up to you and knowing I'll see you every day. You pull me out of bad places just by being in my life. We're the same. We knew what was happening and we let it happen. [there were still benefits but they had simply grown far beyond just sexual benefits.] I told you before you left that as long as you wanted me there then I'd be there and it's still true.
[Maria hadn't been looking at him and now she does, thanking the dark for giving her the bravery to do so.]
Vander, I don't want you to look at me differently. You've made me happy and I don't want things to change. I know they have to one day and when they do I'll be gracious. I won't make it your problem. But I just want to be your friend, whatever that looks like for us. [and many would say this was not just friendship, she knew, but what did it matter if this worked for them?]