etrayalogs | MISSION 003

MISSION 003

WHO: Everyone and their plushies!
WHEN: June 7th to 25th
WHERE: Everywhere
WHAT: The third Mission
NOTES\WARNINGS: Violence against cute inanimate objects, nightmares, psychological horror, potential death and injury. Please add additional warnings as needed within threads.

⏵ care bear delivery⏴

Last week all characters received one of two possible messages informing them about this month’s mission; some people received a message informing them about the plushie delivery and letting them know they are to protect it.

While others were informed that the plushies must be destroyed starting on June 14th, as any ones remaining after June 20th will cause untold destruction upon the city and its inhabitants. Those who received the second message will find themselves unable to share it with other people.

As promised, on the morning of June 7th, all characters receive a delivery from the companion bots: one stuffed animal plushie handed directly to them. The shape of the plushie differs between characters, but their size is somewhat consistent; they’re all bigger than a fist and small enough to be carried around.

The plushies are magical in nature. Those who fall asleep with their plushies in the same room will find that they will not experience any nightmares and awaken feeling refreshed, even if they only sleep a few hours, or sleep in twenty-minute intervals (looking at you, Bats) rather than go for a full night's sleep. If they lock the plushies away, they will still experience some relief, but it won't nearly as much. Those experiencing intense feelings of guilt, sorrow, homesickness, fear, or pain will find that they still feel those emotions, but with significantly less intensity than they may usually have. Stressors are less stressful, and overall, it seems like the plushies and their magical properties are trying to help. It's as if something else is helping to carry the weight of that suffering.

However, characters will also become more attached and protective of their plushies the longer they have them.

⏵ teddy tailor⏴

After receiving their plushies, citizens of Etraya will find a new, colorful addition to the first level of the hospital, where one might expect to see a gift store, decorated with various tiny outfits. Those who wander inside will find that the place is not a store, but a tailor’s workshop. The companion bots manning it will happily guide people through the steps to make an outfit for their plushie. All kinds of fabrics and patterns can be found throughout the workshop, and a few sewing machines are set up for their use.

The companion bots will not physically help, but perhaps other citizens coming in can assist. After all, all those new plushie friends deserve a special outfit.

⏵ tea party⏴

Before the end of the week, citizens will receive an invitation to a Tea Party taking place at Ramsey Farms. Attendance is not mandatory, but the last several days have been nice, haven't they? Surely everyone is feeling like having some tea and scones.

The farm is set up with various tables and tea sets. All tables have exactly four seats and are meant to be occupied by two citizens and their respective plushies. Once seated, citizens may feel compelled to share how their plushie has been helping them these past few days, perhaps they might even get specific about their fears and traumas.

⏵ seek & destroy⏴

As the first week wraps up, citizens receive one more invitation, this one to participate in a game of Hide & Seek with their plushies. Those who received the message to protect their plushies will be told to hide, while those tasked with destroying the plushies will be the seekers. The game will take place over the morning of June 16th; by then, people may feel fairly protective of their plushies.

No information is provided regarding prizes or winning parameters and Aurora will not answer questions pertaining to the game. But hey, the tea party went so well; surely, this will be fun too.

Once a plushie is destroyed, all of those negative feelings that had been suppressed will return to characters. For those who only had their plushie for a week, they'll feel those emotions more intensely, but it won't be as terrible to lose it. The longer they have had the plushie, the more emotions it absorbs, and the more backlash they'll receive when it's destroyed. Characters with intense night terrors may immediately fall asleep once the plushie is destroyed, throwing them into one of the worst night terrors they have experienced.

Characters cannot destroy their own plushies. Those who receive the message to destroy them are welcome to ask other people to destroy it for them, but if they attempt to explain their reasoning, they'll find themselves losing their train of thought or otherwise unable to explain Aurora's mission.

As stated in Aurora's second mission, any plushies that have not been destroyed by the 20th will become a problem all of its own. The exception to this is if Wade Wilson dresses a plushie in the outfit he had received for it. This outfit will both lower the amount of emotions the plushie absorbs, and slow down its transformation.

⏵ cadaver consolations ⏴
And they do transform. After thirteen days of absorbing negative emotions and taking on nightmares for others, the plushies become something so much more than just plushies. Instead of being soft, huggable items meant to assist in lowering stressors, they take on aspects of those stressors. Perhaps your worst nightmare involves watching your loved ones burn to death - your plushie is no longer a cute little teddy bear but is instead the shape of what had once been your mother, burned and singed almost beyond recognizable if it wasn't for her voice calling out to you, telling you that you did this to her as she chases you down. Perhaps you've been feeling guilty for how things went down in the Labyrinth, and the plushie takes on the shape of a friend who had fallen to save you, whispering into your ear about how it is your fault, you did this to them.

From the 20th through the 25th, these plushies remain corporeal. While they may not look soft and fluffy, it's possible to find threads hanging off their bodies. Yanking on these threads will cause them to fall apart, thus destroying the nightmarish creature intent on following its owner to their death. After the twenty-fifth, they will no longer be corporeal and cannot be destroyed through traditional methods. Instead, player characters will need to pull aspects of their fear out of the mangled creature. Perhaps the creature is carrying a replica of a treasured necklace that needs to be yanked off it, or its chest has been torn open, its heart hanging loose for those around it to grab hold of. The character responsible for the plushie will need to devour their fears, which will cause the creature to unravel piece by piece.

How this looks is wholly up to you, as is how far your character's nightmarish creature gets. Whether it's devour in a literal sense, or if it's overcoming their fear by destroying it or overcoming it - the extent of how messy this gets is up to each player, as is how messy their plushie gets.

⏵ NOTES ⏴
The soothing nature of the plushies is magical. They are magically charmed to absorb negative energies and contain them. Characters who can sense magic of this nature are free to notice this.

Those warded from being affected by others' magic may also find that their plushies are not effective for them. This can be played to players' preference; maybe the plushies can work around the wards, but maybe they cannot.

When a character’s plushie is destroyed, the character will feel the full hit of all the emotions it had been holding for them, if a character's plushie survives past June 20th it will transform into a monster, if it survives past the 25th it becomes much harder (and traumatizing) to destroy. They will need to be destroyed, as the plushies will not disappear on their own regardless of how long they're around.

Any questions can be directed to the mod queries thread in the plotting post

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[ Krouse doesn't know what coming down is supposed to mean. Is it the collapsing weight of disparate pieces crumpling together in his chest in tight, physical hurt? The return of sensation in the form of bruises on his knees and the ragged ache of his throat? Or is it the hideously bereft quiet, anchored only by the cool clarity of Hannibal's voice?

Maybe it's the wave of shame that laps over the ocean of guilt that fills him up from his sweating brow to his trembling fingers as Hannibal smooths back some of the mess of him. His eyes latch onto Hannibal's face, and even through the blurriness of tears, he knows he's done something wrong.

(Everything.)

The smell of gasoline in the air nearly makes him sick, and imagining the shallow puddle of bile he'd heave up over Hannibal's feet leaves him choking on a repressed gag. He swallows thickly, blinking back the burn in his eyes, unable to do the same to the harsher burn of sickly vulnerability in the blunt animal comfort of being touched. He doesn't want it. Not from him, not after what he did - but what did he do that Krouse didn't let him do? ]

Why?

[ The question is eked out around another mouthful of sob, dense enough he thinks he could sink teeth into it and chew. He's not angry. There's no space for anger yet at the bottom of the crush. Just the question, ricocheting in an excavated hollow. ]

[it is animal comfort, because he is treating Krouse as a veterinarian would treat a wounded pet on stainless steel. his own breathing is shallow, controlled in this overwhelmed space. add the gasoline and pure iron on his fingers, sickness is everywhere.

he's ready to peel away in case Krouse does indeed vomit, smelling it before the gag begins.]

I saved you the trouble.

[airy, confident. he's been doing a lot of saving recently, all organized neatly for specialized use in the future, though it may not look like that right now. Krouse is capable of a lot of destruction, even in small bursts, not to mention his stamina. the labyrinth showed him as much. here is a distorted mirror image, left broken and out of control from the drug in his system. with the right recipe, the feast could be generous.]

Come, sit up. You'll feel better.

[not a suggestion. one knee is braced against the floor now as his other arm scoops under Krouse's shoulders and lifts him to a sitting position. it's in these moments of contact that Krouse will notice Hannibal's strength, lean muscle working against the weight of a body. he steadies him easily, like the weight of him is nothing, using this time to inspect his arms and turn over his hands to have a closer look at the wounds left by the cephalopod's gnawing mouth.]

We need to get you cleaned up. Disinfect these bites. Can you stand?

Edited 2024-07-02 01:04 (UTC)

[ The turmoil in Krouse's mind doesn't stop his body from being pliantly cooperative. If anything, the disorientation makes it easier, the rippling spasms of shock and pain quieted by the familiarity of being moved by someone not himself. Hands on his shoulders, the snip of scissors by his ears. A soft fall of dark hair that seemed to not belong to him anymore on bare concrete.

He's been handled like this before. With his protective veneers stripped back, his body only remembers it as comforting in the stability, and that sense of being guided into corrected shapes steadies undercurrents he's in no state to be consciously aware of. ]

I c- I can try?

[ The sound of his sniffling seems huge as he attempts to even out his breathing on instinct, wooziness distorting his sense of place and proportion. He wants to curl back in on himself, his hands closing protectively over nothing until Hannibal coaxes them back open for inspection.

He looks at them after he answers. He shouldn't have. His next inhale comes as a wounded keen, strangled and thin, and he closes his eyes futilely against knowing that it's been heard. ]

No'. [ Another tidal gush of a sob, strained against the limits of his throat to hold it. ] I didn't - I didn't want - we were okay, we were okay, I had it -

[ But while his mouth chants denial, he'll find his legs underneath him when Hannibal urges him to stand with his dispassionate carefulness. ]

[Krouse is handled as easily as a ragdoll. even under the spell of ketamine (or something like it, he isn't entirely sure if it's the exact same, but it does the trick) people have a varied sense of control. he hadn't given him so much that he couldn't function, just enough to coax specific words from his mouth and the creature from his hands. no, his slump has to be related to his past.

he tables it. he needs to make this experience gift-wrapped, tie it up nicely. he shushes Krouse gently with little tuts as one would a child. placating, maybe even comforting.]

Just breathe. You're not yourself.

[with no thanks to him. he keeps one hand on the boy's upper arm, avoiding any (known) injuries. Hannibal wouldn't let him fall. he leads him to the guest bathroom slowly, a firm grip on Krouse as he turns the sink on to fill with warm water and plugs the drain. he doesn't trust him to stand on his own.]

Don't look in the mirror, it may be too disorienting for you.

[a half-truth. he knows that just by saying that Krouse might look anyway.]

[ This happened to him in the days after she died the first time, coming in waves of minutes at a time when he'd simply stop, a broken engine stuttering into a grinding lock. Being gathered up and urged along coaxes motion back into him, so that by the time they're in front of the sink he only wants to crash back down into the tile, instead of it seeming impossible to keep standing under the black gravity of loss.

Sometimes he hates that he can get back up. He hates that this doesn't last, that nothing in him really breaks for how much it hurts. It'd be better if there was something tangible. If his chest opened up to spill into the basin of warm water whose lip he clutches as he smothers his crying one shallow inhale at a time.

When he looks in the mirror, he's not disoriented. He's too familiar with the slick, ugly mess there for it to untether him again. He just hates it, loathing welling up to twist his reflection into sickened contempt for the face that casts it.

It's catching Hannibal's reflection that unbalances him. The lines of building fury collapse into muddled shame, and he drops his chin to stare at the vague, broken outline of his shadow captured there. ]

I'm sorry. [ He shakes his head, tightening his grip on the sink, leaning into Hannibal's support like leaning into a bruise. ] I'm sorry. I fucked up.

[ Who is he even apologizing to? What does he think it's going to do, exactly? Who does he expect to care? ]

[he continues to act as a guide, gently pressing Krouse's hand into the warm water. it's baptismal in a way; how professional Hannibal handles him, how he works and tends around the scrapes and cuts. gentle, but with an air of righteousness. slow, pointed glances into the mirror to catch Krouse's expression: his downcast eyes, his tear-stained cheeks.

words follow Krouse's broken apology as though he knew what he was going to say. he trails off the end of his words to continue,]

Who are you apologizing to right now?

[still he uses the mirror to look at him -- it's how he gets the full view.]

[ Giving over his hands like this reinforces the swirl of helplessness Krouse stands in the center of. If he had a second, a minute to himself, he could recompress. Under this dutiful care, it's as if Hannibal cards away the reins of his self-containment with every pass of warm water turning pink. ]

I don't know.

[ His voice cracks on the last word, his lips pulling back in an attempted reflexive smile that only shows as a rictus wince. He tips his head to one side to roughly scrape his face against his shoulder. It smears more than it mops up. ]

I messed up your room.

[ He flits his gaze back to the reflection of Hannibal's preoccupied eyes like he can't help himself, prodding the edges of a fresh wound. ]

Because that's what I do. I told you, didn't I?

[ A note of bleak, false levity, paired with uncertainty - did he really say that, in those words? Did he give enough of a warning for it to be fair? Or did he give out half-truths that were good enough at the time, muddled with how much he wanted them to be enough that he believed his own bullshit? The illusory spark of light fizzles out, leaving him as ashen and tremulous as he was before it. ]

I'll clean up.

[lightly, agreeable:]You did.

[the wounds are cleaned to his satisfaction. he continues to keep Krouse steady, for as long as he'll have to. he dries his hands, takes bandages from a nearby cabinet to wrap them delicately. there are so many of those creeping bites and cuts that a simple bandaid wouldn't do Krouse any good.

to Hannibal, it's as simple as caring for a wounded animal, one that has completely given up on its autonomy. he can guide and direct as he likes. his eyes snap up from their previous focus on his Krouse's hands, an overbearing air to him even with his gentle tone.]

No, that won't be necessary. [once ruined is enough.] You can't continue to blame yourself like this, Krouse. Using your past as a crutch will eventually drown you. I don't think you want to drown, but you do have a penchant for self destruction that you may want to be more aware of.

[ It's better to be treated like a sick animal than a broken machine. A sick animal can heal, however ugly the scars left behind are. He watches the marks of his ill-fated isolation be covered up one winding turn at a time, conscious of Hannibal's attention turning back to his face.

I don't think you want to drown.

He hitches a little at that, blinking hard. He remembers the river, all the stones they threw that didn't skip, vanishing into the water-that-wasn't. He'd gone back to look for her there when she disappeared. Then he'd stared at it too long, picturing the arc of the stones slipping to the bottom.

But then he'd walked back from the bank. He always walks back, however close he gets, however much he probably deserves to go under. How many times can he get away with it before he slips? ]

It's easier to ruin things first.

[ He licks his bitten lips, vaguely aware of how chapped and worried they are. Like hers always used to be. ]

Before anything else does, you know? Because then at least I did it on purpose. Everything good I try to do, any progress I make, I mess it up. And I know that, and I still...

[ He wants to try to clean things up. A room, the wreck of his life, the shattered splinters of his guilt. ]

How far gone can someone get before they can't come back?

[there's something deeply satisfying to him when he accidentally stumbles on a bullseye. the second it leaves his lips and he sees Krouse's reaction, he realizes that he's found something. another deep, hidden ~~string~~ wound that was itching to be plucked.]

You're describing a common obstacle. Many people feel the way you do, you might feel less isolated knowing that.

[the water drains from the sink. now it's the sound of water breaking the silence between them. just Hannibal between Krouse and the door to the hallway as he mulls the question over. he could answer that in a lot of ways.]

I'd have to ask why you would want to know before I provide an answer.

[ Krouse flexes his fingers, bandages wrinkling and stretching. He could close them into fists before he turns around. The thought comes and goes without any weight to it. He doesn't turn around. ]

That's a complicated question.

[ His voice scrapes dark and dry, his softness drained away like the water. ]

You know I've killed people. [ There's no point in pretending otherwise, anymore. ] You saw what I can do. That's not something you pick up at a shooting range. But that's not it. People get over that.

It's why I did it. It's because I had a choice between her, and anyone else, and I chose her. Every time. And I wasn't sorry. I'm not sorry. I'd do it again. The only thing I'm sorry for is that it wasn't fucking good enough.

[ It's the worst thing he's ever said. It slides out of him like a shard of glass from a deep wound, treacherously liberating. He makes a rough, unsteady noise like a laugh, tilting forward to lean on the edge of the sink again so he can press his forehead against the mirror. His eyes closed somewhere along the way. His thin tears don't make it farther than the shallow hollows underneath them. ]

Do many people feel like that, Dr. Lecter?

[an odd chord to be struck at such a time. Hannibal thinks of how he drops his teacups, of Abigail's slit throat, of Will; gutted open on his floor, blood spilling out all around him and sinking into the edges of tile. a stain on his memory.

he's sorry it came to that, knew there were possibilities for other outcomes that never happened. he'd planned for them, but Will had been just unpredictable enough. looking at Krouse, head tilted and eyes steady as hair and skull presses against glass.]

You struggle to live up to your own unrealistic, high expectations. Bring yourself back down and you might be happier with the outcomes.

[something inside of him nearly chides, but instead keeps his tone level:] I think you'd be surprised.

Edited (idk wording !! ) 2024-07-29 22:35 (UTC)

[ It's not forgiveness. He's not even sure it's understanding. Hannibal remains behind a veil of distance, as if he's on the other side of a different pane of silvered glass than the one cooling Krouse's brow.

But if it's judgment, it's judgment of him here, not the things he's done. It threads a needle through the ugly past and the empty future. Everything he's done is done. If he's not going to stop, all he can do is keep going.

He sucks in a shaky, ragged breath, his face crumpling ugly, and fogs the mirror with his exhale. ]

Fuck.

[ Barely voiced at all, entirely under his breath. Krouse pushes back off the sink and scrubs his face across his shoulders one side at a time, shaking his hands out at the wrist. His eyelashes stick as he blinks them apart. ]

You're right. [ He says, thickly. ] I can't keep doing this.

[ It shouldn't be a revelation. He knew that already. It's the reason he came here. But he'd only gotten halfway through accepting it.

He's not past it yet, but there's been a shift over that fragile halfway point. A push, as hideous as it was. He's been taken apart and dipped in acid to burn away rust. Why should that be easy? ]

And I probably would be. [ He almost smiles, more like a flinch than anything else. ] It wouldn't be the first time.

[luckily for Krouse, the only true judgement of him is how trashed his living room is. he despises the idea of entrusting the bots to do the work, so he'll be repairing it himself. he doesn't want Krouse to touch anything, lest he arranges anything in a way Hannibal wouldn't himself. the hand once on gripping the boy's arm moves to be placed on his back, a steady but solid form of some kind of reassurance.]

You made some progress with yourself, even if it doesn't feel like that right now. You should be proud.

[so certain, so sure. no longer watching through the mirror, nothing else exists in this room but the two of them and the lingering scent of blood and rot.]

Are you well enough to bathe? I won't send you back in such a state.

[ Pride seems infinitely distant, but Hannibal's anchoring hand is a tangible comfort as long as he only thinks of the last thing he did with them.

It wouldn't be grateful to do anything else. Hannibal let him in when he had no reason to, patched him up even after Krouse made a wreck of his living room, and he's stayed through this whole sodden ordeal of a fucked up teenager snivelling over his sink. He's been patient and gentle for all of it, after everything Krouse said.

He hasn't met many good people since he left Wisconsin. Maybe that's why he doesn't know what to do with it, cringing and awkward and snot-nosed like someone half his age. ]

I'm okay.

[ He does have some pride left after all. Not the kind Hannibal means, but it could be a start. ]

I should go. Get out of your hair. I can get back on my own.

[ That's true. As long as he's standing, he can walk. He breathes through his mouth so he doesn't sniffle, feeling his ribs expand and settle most acutely under the weight of Hannibal's touch. ]

Thank you.

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MISSION 003

gross: the thread, emetophobia

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cw: suicidal ideation

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cw mentions of attempted murder/blood

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